Immaturity is an interesting thing. I don’t believe there is such a thing as willful immaturity in a sincere believer (well, maybe, but that’s besides the point). The very act of realizing your immaturity is the first step into maturing, depending on what reaction you have to the revelation of your immaturity. We are often embarrassed when we realize we are immature. Oh man, what will people think of me? I’m not as mature as they are in this area of life. It’s kind of a shameful thing. No one wants to be ‘stupid’ or ‘less than’ what they could be.
But what brings great joy to my heart, as well as hope to my spirit, is that God sees us in our immaturity – and not just the immaturity that we are unaware of. He sees the same immaturity that we see, and yet He calls us lovely.
“I am dark, but lovely,
O daughters of Jerusalem,
Like the tents of Kedar,
Like the curtains of Solomon.”
– SOS 1:5
In this passage the Shulamite (allegorically you, the Church) is confronted with her immaturity in her sins. She recognizes suddenly that she is dark. It’s clear through the passages around 1:5 that she is sincere. She is not in active rebellion against God. She is weak and immature. She is dark in her heart, yet sincere. Her sincerity to God causes Him to say she is lovely.
The tents of Kedar were made from black goat hair. This is in contrast to the white curtains of Solomon. This speaks of the further picture of how her heart is: dark, but lovely.
When we recognize our immaturity and make a step towards Jesus, He loves it. The Yes in our spirit for Jesus ravishes His heart (SOS 4:9). Next time you come face-to-face with your immaturity, admit it, repent of it if necessary, and let your heart shout a great Yes to Jesus’ working on that area. Don’t live in embarrassment and shame.
After all, Paul said,
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.“
-2 Chor. 12:19